breaking my hymen

this is an attempt to express my jailed thoughts while working in a very interesting, conservative but fast-developing country. this may be a manifestation of homesickness especially after a having spent the longest vacation of my life following a nearly 15 years of hard worki in saudi arabia. i have been planning to make a blog or a website of my own and my procrastination came to a halt when my new boss asked me to produce a newsletter that would be posted in our local server. is he asking me to make an online news site? oooWWwZZzz. afraid that i may fail my three-month probationary period, i wishpered to myself to start kicking my own butt and do start tickling what i have been sitting on my desk for long.